Livy needs correction.
Emma needs routine and direction.
My throat hurts today, we're going on 5 1/2 wks of very interrupted sleep. Of course the moment Liam and I drift off on the couch today is when Livy decides she's done obeying and needs my attention.
My house is incredibly torn up. All the large furniture is gone, what is left lies around in baskets and piles, waiting for the final day of packing. Our bedrooms have air mattresses and suitcases. The white bare walls and lack of holiday cheer have finally hit me hard.
Today lacks peace. I can hardly blame the kids for being crabby with each other. The snow has kept us home-bound and their mom is constantly busy with baby brother.
I'm so exhausted. My job never has a "clocked out" time. I feel like that's what I need right now.
I need a sick-day, a holiday. I don't feel like I can keep giving out when I'm wearing down.
How. How will I keep everyone together and make it through the next 2 1/2 weeks?
I don't know.
This is a very real post. Not so upbeat today.
1 comment:
So sorry Nellie, you have alot on your plate! I know how you feel too because I get that way when my body starts betraying me with lupus symptoms, headaches, and other things that prevent me from being the best mom I can be. On those days, jake always reminds me that if I've managed to keep the kids and myself fed and alive, then I've done well. Just keeping Liam fed right now is a full time task for you and is no small thing! Let everything else fall away. Easy for me to say, I'm not moving in 2 weeks, right!? :-) Since Gabe was born I have surrendered to disorder but Gabe is wonderfully well-adjusted from our time spent nursing and bonding.You'll be on the other side of this very soon.
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