Tonight, I remember.
It's all flooding back to me.
I remember one of the reasons there's a 4 year spread between our kids. Because it took us around 2 1/2 years to forget this part of the journey.
The sickness.
So far, not debilitating thankfully. Just amazingly nauseous. And I have such a urge to clothespin my nose shut 24/7.
We've promised ourselves that we won't get to the point we did with Liv's pregnancy, passed out on the bathroom floor from a day of losing "everything" at least 2o times. I stubbornly fought to do it on my own, without medication because I thought
"Women go through this every day, I can be strong."
Well, being strong and smart are two different things, and then again, sometimes the very same.
Like my Dad said tonight, "Remember what you get out of all this!" And I do, it's right in front of me every day. Every time Emma comes and holds my hand, whispering how much she loves me while I close my eyes, trying to make the waves of sickness pass....every time Liv jumps down the stairs in a tutu and tiara. I remember why I go through 4 months of the most terrible stomach flu ever. For them. For the chance to meet one more incredible little being who Andy and I get to love and raise and delight in, for our whole lives.
4 months, for 60 years.....
good trade.
1 comment:
Oh Nellie...I'm so sorry that you are again blessed with morning sickness. If you are like I was...I would have been grateful if it had really just been "Morning" sickness! Someone needs to come up with a more appropriate name for it. With Becky I ended up in the hospital, so dehydrated that they stuck me 14 times trying to start an I. In the mornings, when the alarm went off, James would grab the cover and uncover me..because as soon as my eyes opened...off I went running!! Good thing we love our kids so much...it is all worth it in the end...isn't it!
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